^{Lately this scripture has just gripped my heart like no other, captivated, absorbed and consumed me in all ways. Still there is this burning passion inside that I have yet to reckon with. Everything in my being concurs with this blazing burn but I still am in the process of sorting all this out. A deep complex mess of emotions, thoughts, experiences both blessed and bitter, sought out and unexpected are tangled and awry. I just feel so askew as of this last year. I am in desperation, a longing, aching to pursue God in mighty ways in the simplest of days. So this is me.. I am broken, I am blessed.. I am a beautiful mess that God is still working on. And that's what I hold to in the longest of days and darkest of nights, that He will never give up on me.. no matter how confused, or distraught I may be. Where His glory is I want to be, where His beauty is I want to see.} 


 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. -Philippians 4:8